Quick update

Sorry, I ghosted on the art front, but it’s not like I haven’t been working, I promise. Brian and I have been busy writing SOL every second we’re not working our real-life jobs. We’re five chapters in on the detailed timeline, with a very very vague timeline that takes it all the way to the end. SOL’s story line will be 100% planned out, unlike LAR which only had a vague direction that changed way more than I care to admit.

I will warn you that LAR is coming down. (AID/THM too). I’ve tried a million ways to move it to a subdomain so it’s separate from SOLand it’s just not working, so I found a “fix”, but it involves completely wiping my back-end image gallery and starting over. I’ll lose any comments, but I might C&P them along with the descriptions which have patron recognition.

I’m also trying to find a better way to share the pages than using ComicPress/ComicEasel, which is no longer being developed and is a bitch to code around.

Finally, I totally forgot to include what happens to Winnie in my write up. Are you interested in hearing about it?

How it ends…

Hey guys, sorry it took so long to get this to you. I’ve had zero creative drive lately. But yesterday and today, it just flowed. Originally, LAR was going to go on for years with a wedding and kiddos and junk. But after the breakup with my ex, this is how I rewrote it. It’s mostly just an overview, with some more specific scenes in there that I’d already written. Anyway, this is the rewrite I did…

TL;DR- The end.


The act five side story was going to be a shortened version of act zero. Originally, it was planned to be a whole act following Jaska from leaving Nix Velox (his village), through to the beginning of act one when they were thrown onto the boat. It would cover his journey south, meeting Catlin, his transformation, and the torture he was put through while waiting for the ship that would take them to Paello Isle. Instead, I shortened it down to a 7 page side story.

Here is the overview:


Child Jaska

  • Chases hawk
  • Uses powers
  • Sees through the hawk’s eyes

A little older

  • Watches father skin an animal
  • Asks why they kill animals

Teen Jaska

  • Thanking recent kill for its sacrifice so that his people may live

Journey to Vinea

  • Joking with companions
  • Teasing his little brother

Saving Yannick from the bear

The change

Jaska wakes from his dream

Over the course of the next few acts, Jaska would run into Torin more frequently, even to the point of meeting her wife. When he is out with Tonya and they meet up, Tonya gets easily angry and jealous of how flustered both Torin and Jaska are around each other.

Torin on the Bridge

Cast: T=Torin; W=Wife

T- -waiting on a footbridge in the park, staring down at water; thinks about Jaska; flashes back to dreams; grips her hair- Get over it, Tor! It was just a stupid dream!
W- What about?
T- Oh, nothing. Just a nightmare. Been bugging me all day.
W- Wanna talk about it?
T- No, I’m fine.
W- -frowns-

One day, when out with Presley and Summer, Jaska runs into Torin and Summer invites her to their next dinner party.

At the party, it is obvious that Torin’s wife is not well. She seems extremely tired and Torin takes her home early, but she is pleasant to be around.


Jaska gets on well with Lana and Brandon at his new job. Brandon (being in a wheelchair) mans the monitors while Jaska and Lana do rounds. With absolutely NOTHING happening on the night shift, the pair get up to mischief.
Here are a few examples:


The Race

L- -standing in doorway of security office- Bran, tell us who passes the door first.
B- K…
-Jaska and Lana take off running-
-speedwalk thru science lab as not to break anything-
-Jaska runs thru basement; Lana noes the fuck out-
J- Hey! That’s cheating!!
L- -on stairs; jumps banister, cuts J off- Twelve years of gymnastics, bitch!
-both run past security office door; walk back panting-
L- So, who one?
B- Unlike you two, I was working.
-J and L stare at monitors for a moment-
L- There is literally NOTHING happening! You couldn’t have looked away for two seconds?
B- Nope
L- -throws hands in the air; walks away-

The Basement

B- -into radio- Hey, need one of you to check the basement. Something fell over.
L- -thru radio- Not it!
J- -thru radio- Okay, I’ll do it.
J- -enters basement, looks around, comes to a set of doors chained and locked; shines light on doors, illuminating the words painted on them in red- Don’t dead… Open inside… That makes no sense. -over radio- Hey, what’s up with the writing on the doors?
L- Oh… that’s… don’t worry about that. That’s just the furnace room. Charlie, the last night guard, he did that. Big zombie movie fan.
J- -thought bubble- The fuck’s a zombie?
B- Keep going, over by the old computer stuff.
J- -stares at door for another moment, then continues on. Finds downed item. Nothing else is out of place, no one else in basement-

Brandon warns Lana about flirting too much (in her own way) with Jaska. She denies it, then admits that she is flirting, but it’s just harmless fun and that she doesn’t like him like that.


Catlin goes through a string of jobs, not making it past the training period.


Both Tonya and Arthur express jealousy and suspicion regularly about Catlin and Jaska living together. Neither are pleased that Jaska is supporting her. Arthur never offers to help.


Between Jaska’s protective nature around Catlin and how flustered he gets around Torin, she ends things with Jaska.


One evening, Jaska and Catlin are hanging out on the fire escape and Jaska kisses Catlin. Unbeknownst to them, Arthur is on the street below and sees them. Arthur gives her multiple openings to tell him what happened, but she acts oblivious.


Arthur gets a job offer back in his hometown. He invites her out to dinner, but keeps hesitating all night. The following morning, he finally tells her about the job, then invites her to go with him, then he offers a ring.


Catlin is stunned. She doesn’t know what to think and at 19, she definitely isn’t ready. She doesn’t want to leave her friends. Arthur accuses her of being in love with Jaska, of seeing her on the balcony with him. Finally, he tells her to get her stuff and get out and he storms out of the apartment.


Catlin gathers her things, leaves her key with the doorman and goes home.


Jaska returns home from work to find a note from Catlin saying that she needs time to figure things out. Her room is empty, but for the furniture. [/end act]


The next side story opens with Catlin waking up in bed with Gypsy. What was supposed to be a few nights on the couch that turned into a one-night rebound turns into a full-blown relationship. Catlin falls for Gypsy hard and Gypsy adores her.

When a job opening comes up at the coffee shop, Gypsy recommends Catlin to her boss, but like all the jobs before, it doesn’t go well.


One day, Jake (rabbit) asks Summer how Catlin is doing and she says “Last I heard, she hooked up with a girl at the coffee shop.” He furiously blushes at the idea.

Catlin chances to run into Jake in the market. Coffee becomes a regular thing between the two.


Being single and still very possessive of Catlin, the more Jaska thinks about her out there being happy with another girl, the darker his thoughts get.


Summer comments that they haven’t seen Torin in a while (with a joke in there about how she can never remember Torin’s wife’s name – hint: she is never given a name).


At Gypsy’s urging, and an invitation from Summer, Catlin and Gypsy attend a dinner party. The evening goes well, everyone enjoys Gypsy and Catlin is encouraged to spend more time around her friends again.


Exposed to this new version of Catlin, Jaska doesn’t like who she is becoming. He confronts her about her behaviour.


A season goes by.

The Breakup

Cast: G=Gypsy, C=Catlin

G- I love you and I know you love me but I think there’s someone else.
C- What? No! Of course not!
G- Sweetie, it’s the same person it’s been since day one. You just need to see that.
C- So… you’re breaking up with me?
G- Yes. I love you so much, but I’m not the one. I’m just your rebound. Now you need to figure out for yourself who it is and go get them.

Catlin goes to Summer and Presley with all her stuff.

Winnie tells Catlin of an opening at the library. Catlin imagines that scene that takes place in every movie with a library where the bookshelves domino, but she’s trained to reshelve books and run the front desk. It’s not enough to afford her own place, but it’s enough to live off of. She moves back in with Winnie.


Two more seasons pass. Shows Jaska and Catlin in everyday life.

Jaska and Torin

Cast: J=Jaska, T=Torin
Jaska has a prophetic dream, wakes up confused, looking at the empty space beside him. Gets up, throws on clothes, runs out into the rain.
Finds Torin standing on the other side of a bridge railing.
J- Torin!
T- Just go away!
J- No! What the hell are you doing?
T- I can’t do this. She’s gone. I can’t…
J- What?
T- She’s dead!
J- Torin, don’t do this! What about everyone else? Everyone you’ll leave behind? Don’t you know how much that will hurt them?
T- I don’t care. None of that matters.
J- What about me?
T- -looks at him-
J- If you do this, do you have any idea what that would do to me? I know it hurts. It will never stop hurting. You’ll always miss her, and you don’t feel like it now, but you will learn how to live without her. You’ll get stronger everyday so it will hurt a little less. Torin, please. You are so important to me.
T- -lets go of the railing to cover her face and cry-
J- -grabs her and lifts her over the railing to safety-
Jaska sits with Torin through the night until she falls asleep, carries her to Catlin’s old room

T- -wakes, goes to Jaska’s room-
J- -wakes at the sound of the door-
T- Sorry, I’m gonna…
J- -pulls back the covers- Come on.
T- -sniffs, hurries to the bed and climbs in, falls asleep cuddled up with him-

J- -wakes to find Torin watching him- Hey…
T- Hey. You must think I’m crazy.
J- No, I think you’re hurting. When my mother died, I was lost. My father didn’t know how to help. He had my little brother and a new baby to see to. He didn’t know how to help me. Mom was the only one who understood me and life without her was impossible, but I got wrapped up in helping my dad and learning my trade and one day I realized… it didn’t hurt like it used to.

T- -strokes his cheek, kisses him-
J- Torin… I don’t think…
T- -climbs on top of him- You’re important to me too.

Things begin to wind down at this point between characters.

The End

Cast: C=Catlin, J=Jake
Cy=Cyrus (SOL), R=Romy (SOL)

Catlin walking through the market. Sees Jaska with Torin out shopping. Sighs.
Bumps shoulders with Cyrus.
Cy- Oh, sorry.
C- -watches him go-
R- Hey, are we going to the Valkyrie tonight?
Cy- Still hoping to figure out what that was in the shark head?

Catlin continues to the cafe.
C- -mumbles- He’ll be in a pink shirt… pink shirt… -sees Jake in a pink shirt-
J- -spots her, straightens-
C- Jake, you’re not… -blush-
J- -sigh- Damn Summer and her meddling.
C- -sits- Yea, but this time, I don’t mind so much.
J- Yea… yea. Maybe she got it right this time. -turns to waitress to order-


The End

End of Act 5 – Sketches

The votes are in. 31 to 14 to end LAR. Thank you to everyone for following me throughout this adventure and I’m sorry to end it here. I will be writing up a summary of the end of the story and I will try to give credit where I can to those who helped me write certain scenes.

Please follow me either here for updates, or on any of my social media for upcoming news about my next series.

The Fate of LAR

First, I want to thank everyone who took the time to vote. This story doesn’t just belong to me, I wanted everyone to have a say in its fate. So, thank you.

I did not count any comment votes that said something like “whatever you think is best” or “do what’s best for you” because I am inclined to end LAR and that would have swayed the vote that much more.

The results….

69% / 31%

to end LAR

So, thank you to everyone who voiced your opinion.

On Monday, I’m going to post the last 26 pages of clean sketches. I tried to clean them up as much as possible to make them understandable. FEEL FREE TO ASK QUESTIONS!!!! I will also be writing a brief summary of how the story ends, including some more detailed bits that I already planned out.

Again, thank you thank you thank you!

Facebook Poll

I posted a poll about the future of LAR on my FB page. If you could, take a moment to vote for me. If you don’t have FB, just comment here.


As you might remember, Jaska and Catlin from Life as Rendered are based on me and my ex-husband. When we broke up, he expressed a wish that I do not use his character anymore but allowed it for me to finish the story (with certain conditions).

While current events in the story aren’t a problem to write about, the upcoming plot gets very difficult for me.
How would you feel about me just stopping LAR, leaving it with no resolution? I will push thru if that’s what the majority want me to do.

I do have a new series in the works. I’ve already got the beginning started in my head and even did a mockup for page one to send to my husband mostly just to tease him. It takes place in the same universe and on the same timeline. I am really excited about starting this story.

End LAR and start the new story.
End LAR, but tell us how it ends.
Keep going.


Drawing Time Lapse #4

OMG! I finally uploaded another video! And everyone dies of shock! My computer and the video capture software were not getting along anymore, so Brian surprised me with a Surface Pro 5! I bought the Movavi Game Capture software that works even better with Photoshop than the regular software and got a beautiful capture with absolutely no lag.

Anyway, this video features my kids’ fursonas. I miss them bunches and can’t wait to see them again.

Thank you, Michael!

For those that don’t remember, Michael Barløse Hansen was a patron for quite a while but had to remove his support because of personal reasons. I am so shocked and grateful that he has resumed supporting me. I am so thankful for all of my patrons and for those that support me by liking and sharing my art.

When One Thing Ends…

As ideas strike me, I write them down. Usually, it’s on a scrap piece of paper or sticky notes or in my sketchbook or one of my many half-filled notebooks. Yesterday, I got a mini binder to keep all my ideas in and rewrote everything so it could all be in one place, and legible, because when I get ideas, I tend to scribble them out as fast as possible. Yesterday, I transferred over the last scene of the comic and writing those words was surreal.

The ending leads into my new comic. It takes place in the same universe. It already has a name (thank you Jarah on Tapas) and I’ve got the main characters designed. Now I’m working on building backstories and personalities in my downtime.

A Little Update On My Life

If you follow me on social media, you know that I recently moved from NC to OK. I’m all settled into my new place and finally have all my collectibles out on display again. Okay, almost all. Still need one more bookshelf in the bedroom for the rest of my Sailor Moon stuff, which I’m hoping to pick up in the next week.

I GOT A FERRET!!! Her name is Sin. She’s about two months old. She’s a biter and a little poop machine, but she gives me kisses on my face. She likes her bouncy ball with the purple glitter and eyeballs in it. She’s learning to fight her t-rex plush instead of my hands and she’s obsessed with biting my feet. I’ve been wearing my boots all day for the last two days and she is not pleased. All in all, she’s a sweetheart. Can’t wait to train her to go places with me. She’s still a little too small for her harness and everything startles her.

And finally, I will be starting a new job soon, working in the rental office of a car dealership. They’re working on completing the background check and I have to do a drug test. Yay. So it will probably at least October 9th before I start, maybe later. My new manager said it could take 10-14 days to complete the hiring process. Thankfully it’s only 15 minutes from home, so with the exception of working nights, I’ll be getting home at a reasonable time and will have more time to work on art.

I think that’s about it.